Kim Hyun Joong! <3.
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Sunday, November 1, 2009 -{'7:42 AM
Background.
Went to kovan jus now to try on our Prom night dress.Although,my mood was always not there,but Friends, all of you make me smile more than i expected.When i was on my way back home,i was alone.The unhappiness suddenly came bk again.Why am i keep thinking abt this.?I guess nobody will understand at least for now.For the first time i cried infront of Pat telling her how sad i am and my story which nobody knw.who knw,she told me hers too.soo ended up the two of us CRIED.Some of my close friend,knw my story but tat was only part of it.I knw nomatter how many time i tell this to one of my friend,i will definately cry again.Because this scar will forever be with me,deep down in my heart.Whenever i am alone,my mind will flash this story again and again.i will never forget.why?i asked myself so many damn time.But i couldnt get an ans.i am suffering!it hurt my heart even more.haix:(It seem tat Pat had the same Fate as me?But she is better than me at least.Baobei,even if i am ok with him again,the scar will still remind inside there.It will always keep increasing instead of decreasing.i only hope it will stop here.Because It really hurt me this time,although he is always lik tat all the time.Baobei,do you knw everytime i saw him passby,my emotion get worse and tears starts to roll down.i knw he treat me well,but it hurt me more.i cant open my mouth and tell you the story behide me.i dint knw how to say.Give me more time.when i am able to tell you,i will tell you.i start to Hate him! i still remember Mr Ben told me tat Hate is a very strong word,but i am using this word on him now.Because i cant stand it anymore.The Greatest Regret.Ps:My ZDL had recover.i hope he could takcare of himself.It really make me heart broken upon seeing him in tat state.loves loves:)
